What does the relationship between self-trust and accepting the process have with living a life of conscious abundance?

They’re so interconnected that each produces the energies needed to create a life you dream of — the life you try to manifest. But if you’re struggling with a lack of self-trust it becomes an obstacle in living a life of abundance. 

Harnessing the Energy of Conscious Abundance through Self-Trust

Abundance has become a buzz word in the spiritual space, but let's take a moment to talk about what it really means. In Tantra, Goddess Lakshmi and Goddess Tripura Sundari are the goddesses of abundance. But we don't call them just Goddesses of abundance, we call them energies of the conscious abundance — which means a more aware, wholesome energy that brings you playfulness, joy, healing, and trust.

Can you reflect on your relationship with self trust? Is it an obstacle in living a life of conscious abundance? The kind of abundance that brings you freedom, good mental health, physical health, good family energy, and in friendships, relationships that are healthy and fulfilling?

Trust is a big part of living a life of abundance. But what does it mean to trust the process of your awareness? Let's first discuss what it doesn't mean — what does it look like when we don't trust the process?

The Consequences of Not Trusting the Process

When we are born, we are born with a consciousness. It's a blank canvas. We don't know what's right, what's wrong, how to behave, how to love, how to form friendships, or what would make for a professionally successful career; we are just a happy kid who's enjoying life every day. Happy to show up, breathe, play, and go through life.

And then life starts to happen. 

We begin to witness pain, drama, trauma all around us. Somewhere, it starts to feel that it's not enough to trust. Because our trust starts to come across hurt, betrayal, disappointment, and due to this, we become scared. We begin to doubt our ability to trust and show up for love. Our caretakers, parents, religion, society, school, friends circle — their voices, their experiences, begin to accumulate within our belief systems. 

We begin to absorb the experiences of those around us. Consciously and unconsciously, we soil the process of trusting — how to show up for it and how not to show up for it. We vicariously judge situations and new experiences because we look through them not from a lens of our own, but through someone else’s.

When we don't show up to trust the big process, we start to have a certain kind of behavior. 

• We become possessive

• we begin to feel there is not enough (scarcity mindset)

• we become afraid of abandonment

• we start to force everything 

• we become riddled wirth anxiety

• we give unclear messages to the universe

• we become controlling

So we try to possess our partners or even attract partners who want to possess us. We strive to possess material things, children, and anything that starts to become mildly good for us. We start to force everything — love, creativity, careers, success. We get into this mindset that "I need to accomplish everything with force." We get anxiety, anxious about minor inconveniences or disruptions to our plans. We ride on the frequency of confusion instead of open-mindedness.

Out of this anxiety, we start to give unclear and confusing messages to the universe. When we are not able to trust, we tell the universe, "I want this," but we do something else. Our desires aren't aligned with our actions.

We become controlling, to control everything or everyone around us — little things, big things — because we aren't trusting the process. When you aren't trusting, you begin to experience constant restlessness.

What happens as a result of all these behaviors and tendencies? You develop a personality that's so rooted in these patterns that will never help the situation. Each time you show up with this energy — confusion, control, possessiveness, anxiety — you move further away from conscious abundance, of manifesting the life you want — and you habitually sabotage your relationships. 

Breaking the Cycle: How to Reverse The Pattern

Breaking free from negative behavioral patterns that stem from a lack of self-trust requires a conscious effort to change your approach to life. 

Here are four things you can do to reverse the pattern and cultivate trust as a state of your being.

Meditate 

The first step in reversing the pattern is to start meditating. Meditation allows you to go beyond the limitations of your identity, the information you have about life, love, success, and failure, and the memories you have stored. By going beyond these experiences and negative behaviors, you can start to cultivate trust in yourself and others.

Come from a place of intention 

Intention is the conscious desire of your soul. The right intention can help you to lead with trust. Cultivating trust as a state of your awareness can be one of the best and easiest intentions. You don't have to chase trust, you simply show up with trust as a state of your being, just like breathing is the state of your being.

Be mindful of your actions

Being mindful of your actions is key to eliminating behavioral patterns that stem from a lack of trust. Not being able to trust the process can result in toxic, exhausting, and angry actions towards your life. Instead, start taking actions that encourage and promote trust. This could mean taking a risk, launching a new business, refraining from questioning your partner's motives, finally writing that story you want to share with the world, creating a business model that gives you abundance and joy, or expressing your love to someone where you may be afraid to express your feelings.

Invite the energy of the great teacher, Buddha

Buddha's message in this process is to simply be your own light. Inviting the energy of the great teacher, Buddha, can help you to find your inner light and cultivate trust in yourself and others.

By following these steps, you can break the cycle of negative behavioral patterns and cultivate trust as a state of your being. Remember that change is a journey, so be patient with yourself and trust the process. If you’re interested in diving deeper into this work, I invite you to join our Conscious Meditation program.